tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24967343120758260092024-02-07T22:43:54.932-06:00The New BeehiveLizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.comBlogger489125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-66420009806277606552016-03-17T22:30:00.001-05:002016-03-17T22:30:54.540-05:00My world in piecesOnce again, I find myself drawn to the keyboard when under a tremendous amount of stress. I am not ready to actually write about "the incident" so for now, it will simply be referred to as the incident. Never in my life, did I imagine we would find ourselves in this situation. It is just about the last thing I would have expected. My heart is broken, shattered into so many pieces, I don''t know if it will ever be repaired. I find myself in a very difficult position, and yet with a chrystal clear choice to make. Not really a choice, it is just what will happen. When we are faced with a situation like we are in now, you do what you have to do. Although I wish we could go back and prevent it from happening, I pray that God will give us the resources and energy to face what we are about to face. What do you do when you know that soon you are going to have to look evil in the face? What do you do when you know that it is in the best interest of everyone to keep your mouth shut and yet, why? Why can't you tell someone exactly what you think of them when they have done such a wretched thing? I want answers, knowing full well that there can't possibly be any that would satisfy the questions. I don't understand. I want to grab them by the shoulders and say how? How could you possibly do this? What is missing in you that you would think this is okay? It's not, it never will be. <br />
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TO HER:<br />
I don't care what you experienced as a child, you made the same choice, over and over after being advised against it by every sane person you know. You are a stubborn, selfish bitch. Your stubbornness nearly ended a miracle before it got started good. You are lower than low. At first I thought it was just you being young, but it isn't. I saw the pictures, no one could tell me that you can't see what the situation was. You were doing it on purpose, if I ever doubted that before, I don't now. That was just plain cruel. I see you posting on Facebook and acting like everything is totally normal. Like nothing has happened, like our intersected world hasn't been turned upside down. It has! The fact that you are behaving as though it hasn't, speaks volumes as to your prior intentions. I knew all along that something must have been wrong. Most people in the beginning part of the situation, are thrilled at the circumstances. They shout it from the rooftops and post pictures all over the place showing their beautiful situation. Not you, you hid him away. I didn't know why then, but now I believe you never wanted the situation to happen. <br />
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TO HIM:<br />
I am just as angry with you, but so very hurt. I know you were raised better than that. I know you used to be a loving, nurturing person. I don't even know you anymore. I know you were letting her have her way, but it was your duty to stand up for what I have to believe you knew was the right thing. I have to believe that you saw what was happening. Anyone could see what was happening. Why didn't you stand up to her? Why didn't you insist? What is missing in your heart that you didn't take care of this before it got so bad? Where did I go wrong? How did I miss it? I have to believe that you are not a heartless monster. I love you, have told you your whole life how much I do. That won't stop but I am so incredibly angry right now. So hurt. I have never cried so much in my whole life. If you decide to walk away from her, I hope that the realization of what has really happened will smack you in the face. Part of me hopes that happens, and part of me says that if you are a real person, you won't be able to live with what has happened.<br />
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I saw the pictures from the day this happened to 5 short days later. I sobbed for so long after seeing the first picture. I praise God and the other people involved for helping to put this situation back together. You don't deserve to have him returned. You don''t deserve the miracle that you were blessed with. We will take over where you never were. We will provide the physical, emotional and financial support to make sure he never doubts for one second that he is loved and wanted.<br />
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You both deserve to be held accountable. I am not the one to pass down the decision for how that should happen, but I assure you that as much as I love you, I will encourage the right people to take care of this.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-27184964212308244742012-03-09T12:35:00.000-06:002012-03-10T00:30:31.160-06:00Traveling...AKA Day 115 of 365Driving to Valera today to take Em to her dad for Spring Break and having Kyle and Miranda follow me back to Whitney. They will be staying until Wednesday morning. Michael, Sandra and Mom will be here tomorrow and are staying until Thursday. Love that everyone is coming. They will have to pardon our messy house for now. Hoping to get it all put together soon.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-43975045531968393172012-03-08T22:30:00.000-06:002012-03-10T00:27:23.357-06:00Modem, too?....AKA Day 114 of 365When it rains it pours. Now the new modem doesn't seem to be working. Tech coming out tomorrow.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-44539235996079912982012-03-07T21:51:00.001-06:002012-03-07T21:51:47.232-06:00Having what I think is a serious purer issue, but is probably something super simple. Will try again tomorrow to fix it.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-7626119152593393392012-03-06T23:46:00.001-06:002012-03-06T23:46:12.397-06:00Hate falling asleep on the couch. It messes with my whole sleep pattern.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-60756225098117577182012-03-05T23:42:00.001-06:002012-03-05T23:42:17.772-06:00Kitchen is coming together.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-49577645922800717762012-03-04T21:17:00.001-06:002012-03-04T21:17:12.966-06:00Day 111 of 365 Today was all about cleaning the brat packs abode. Took 4 hours but it sparkled when we left. I felt a little sad saying goodbye to our home :(Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-31003104729075548842012-03-03T23:45:00.000-06:002012-03-04T05:44:48.194-06:00moved in!...AKA Day 110 of 365Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-84005081432316178882012-03-02T23:54:00.001-06:002012-03-02T23:54:33.162-06:00OUCHIE, we all hurt!....AKA Day 109 of 365OMg, what a very long day. Woke at 5 to get ready to head to Whitney. Made it out the door at 6:30 and to Whitney by 7:30. By the time we stopped by both nursing homes and then dropped Jim off at work, we walked in the door at the school around 8. Spent an hour enrolling her and then she decided to start school on Monday. We stopped back by the clinic, then headed out to the house. Emily and I were like unpacking machines. We were able to unpack all of the pantry items, all of the stockpile, all of my clothes into the closet, all the bakeware, china, glasses, plates, tupperware etc. We also unpacked all the games and medicine box. We felt very accomplished when we left there. We had lunch with Jim mid day, then around 3 we left for Hillsboro to go the bank and then to pick up some new clothes for Em's more relaxed dress code. She was thrilled! Back to Whitney to pick up Jim. On to Waco to pick up the UHAUL, then back to Marlin where we started in packing again. Just about the time we were all reaching major meltdown mode, Kyle showed up and changed the mood of the house! Love that kid! Now we are all about to topple over. Think we are going to hit the hay, then start dark and early tomorrow morning. Tomorrow is moving day! Will be updating from my phone for a few days while we unpack and wait on the internet connection to be established. Be well all!Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-56033898659874337532012-03-01T21:27:00.000-06:002012-03-01T21:27:03.607-06:00Back spaz spaz spasms...AKA Day 108 of 365Started out the morning okay. Got up and started getting busy. Em made her way to school and Jim was out the door. Then I remembered that I didn't send lunch or lunch money with her. This put a big pause in my morning. I went and picked up lunch for her from Subway and went to Walmart to purchase *sigh* more bins for packing. I came home and made it through lunch, a few boxes, phone calls, bill paying, cityville and straightening then I had to go withdraw her from school. She handled it very well and didn't seem sad at all. This made me feel better. After being totally mortified by a comment involving someone planting their lips on a big white butt and having turned as red as a lobster, we finally made it out of the school. We stopped by Sonic for drinks and tried the new sweet potato tots (YUMMO, just make sure you add salt as they don't salt them!). We headed home where we started in on our packing again. I managed to go through my entire closet and thin it down by a third. Now what I didn't mention is that about midway through this day, I started having massive back spasms. They are still happening. Gotta love when you get stressed :(<br />
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Tomorrow takes us to Whitney, enrolling her in school, unpacking as many of the boxes that Jim has already taken there, picking them both back up, heading to Waco to pick up the UHAUL, coming back to Marlin, Kyle arriving, frantic packing finishing and a wee bit of sleep before rising on Saturday morning to load it all into the truck and head to Whitney. <br />
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Sunday will bring us driving back to Marlin to clean the house, then Monday the carpet cleaners arrive. Shutting off the utilities on Tuesday and we will officially be finished with our time in Marlin. I will miss this town more than I thought I would. I have grown accustomed to our home here, our neighbors, the town itself. I will miss all these things, but I am very much looking forward to our new adventure!Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-6579023197490053862012-02-29T11:18:00.000-06:002012-02-29T11:18:27.694-06:00God breezes...AKA Day 107 of 365Okay, just had one of those moments of clarity. For the past couple of days I have been feeling incredibly overwhelmed with packing and preparing to move. I have been doing the things that needed to be done, but not at all with a joyful heart or in the quantities that needed to be done. I had been feeling more irritated about trying to get it all done. Then a moment ago, in a moment of true clarity, I heard the message come across loud and clear. Instead of being irritated with moving, I am grateful that our new home is ready for us to move into now. We are blessed to have a new home in a quiet neighborhood in which to start the next chapter in our lives. Instead of being angry at myself for all of the stuff we have accumulated since we moved to Marlin and are now having to pack, I am feeling blessed that we have the means to pick up the things we need, when we need them. I am thankful that we are able to pass on some of the things to a needy family to bless them. I am thankful that we will all be together in Whitney where my honey can now get an extra hour of sleep in the morning instead having to get up early and make the hour long drive to Whitney for work. I am thankful that my beautiful daughter is so excited at the possibility of making new friends in her new school. I am thankful that we will be surrounded with a new view in which to gather inspiration to foster the creativity that I know resides within each of us. I am thankful that we will be pushed to get things unpacked quickly so that the next weekend we can welcome family for a visit with open arms since we haven't seen them in almost a year. I am thankful that we will get to spend a few days with Kyle over Spring Break as well. I am thankful that Emily is excited at the thought of getting to spend some time in Odessa with the other side of her family over Spring Break. I am looking forward to exploring our new town. I am realizing that I was in need of an attitude adjustment and am thankful that God saw fit just a bit ago to knock me upside the head and remind me of all the things we have been blessed with in our lives. Thanks :)Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-54610494482767713492012-02-28T21:24:00.001-06:002012-02-28T21:24:12.697-06:00Overwhelmed...AKA Day 106 of 365I got some done today, but not as much as I hoped. I forgot how overwhelming moving can feel. I just keep telling myself that this time next week we will be settling in good at our new home. One way or the other, it's happening this weekend. Just trying to remember to breathe deeply and pack just one box at a time. That's all I can do. It's still an exciting adventure, just ready to get to the new part and zoom past the packing part.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-57961468226836400332012-02-27T21:33:00.000-06:002012-02-27T21:33:13.070-06:00I can do anything for 15 minutes!...AKA Day 105 of 365I got much more accomplished than I thought I would today. I packed up a bunch of dishes, small appliances, my china and one box of of my "stockpile" stuff. I know that doesn't sound like a lot, but to anyone who knows me, they realize that is a bunch. Kitcheny stuff is kinda my thing. Tomorrow will be the rest of my stockpile, all of my bakeware and the remainder of the plates and glasses (hello paper plates and red solo cups!). I will also tackle my closet which I intended to do quite some time ago. Will bag up some things for goodwill and then prepare everything else for the move. I am determined to get this done!Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-78970584988173769932012-02-26T20:55:00.003-06:002012-02-26T20:55:57.677-06:00Packing and sorting and moving OH MY!....AKA Day 104 of 365Am really hoping today was more productive than it felt. I was able to go through a bunch of paperwork and sort out what needs to stay and what could go. I also made 2 dozen pear muffins and 2 loaves of pear bread from the pears we picked up from Bountiful Baskets two weeks ago. Got a bunch of laundry finished as well. Thankfully I already prepped tomorrow's supper so I have good intentions of getting up and dressed to the shoes ASAP tomorrow so I can work my tail end off getting stuff done. Here's to good intentions!Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-86764479941029785422012-02-25T23:15:00.001-06:002012-02-25T23:15:04.799-06:00Can barely gold my eyes open. Goodnight.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-33054791618582446242012-02-24T22:33:00.001-06:002012-02-24T22:33:15.185-06:00Coughing. Tired. Sleep.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-7785277304822743142012-02-23T21:02:00.003-06:002012-02-23T21:02:38.460-06:00Oh yeah, it's on!...AKA Day 101 of 365Looks like it is finally all coming together. We take possession of the house on March 1st but won't actually move in until the 3rd. Spent today working on the utilities and logistics of things. Jim will start taking boxes from Marlin to Whitney tomorrow as the owners said we could start storing the boxes there. May as well make the most of the drive. Hoping for as smooth a transition as possible. I am really looking forward to this new chapter. A change of scenery is always inspiring and I could use some inspiration again :)Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-54220691662447170502012-02-22T21:00:00.002-06:002012-02-22T21:00:27.687-06:00cough cough...AKA Day 100 of 365I am so very tired of this cough. I miss sleeping in my bed. I miss being wrapped up in my honey's arms. I miss laying flat without suddenly feeling like I am going to cough up a lung. Other than my throat I feel fine. I made the most amazing muffins today and cooked a yummy supper. Now I am just flat out exhausted. Going to try and go to bed in our bed tonight. Not sure if that will last or not. If it doesn't, guess I will end up back on the couch.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-85974877952938926152012-02-21T10:03:00.002-06:002012-02-21T20:41:45.097-06:00The wheels on the car go round and round...AKA Day 99 of 365Ugh, just spent $625 on new tires. It has to be done, but I hate when it is that time. I did get a good discount though. Brought the men doughnuts for breakfast. I know how to grease the wheel, so to speak LOL. Next stop will be the dealership for an oil change and possible brake service. Then HEB for a King Cake as it's Fat Tuesday! Hoping to have time to get my nails done and pick up a few things before I drive back to Whitney to pick up my baby, then home to Marlin. If I haven't mentioned it, I feel like I live in our car lately. Gotta love the fact that I really like our car. Will post more later...maybe.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-13118096229757866612012-02-20T20:40:00.000-06:002012-02-21T20:41:28.583-06:00CityVille is the work of Satan...AKA Day 98 of 365Slept very little last night after playing CityVille through my exhausted time and right into my I'm wide awake again time. Took a short nap. Must sleep.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-36308958965447370402012-02-19T10:00:00.000-06:002012-02-21T20:39:46.939-06:00Wonderful Weekend...AKA Day 97 of 365Have had a relaxing, yet productive weekend with the love of my life. This afternoon we will go pick up our angel girl in Valera. Miss her so much when she is gone :)Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-26602446236053273942012-02-18T21:58:00.000-06:002012-02-21T20:39:30.185-06:00Waco, Whitney WOO HOO...AKA Day 96 of 365Spent a great day with my honey. Got my hair done and had a nice visit with Kendall. Congrats to her on her engagement! We ran a few errands, had lunch at Collin Street Bakery, then ran to Whitney to take some measurements of the house. Turns out it is about the same size room wise as what we have now, just no garage :( Will have to be efficient about what we keep as there will be no storing boxes in the garage for years LOL.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-60833507108822129022012-02-17T21:56:00.000-06:002012-02-21T20:39:16.765-06:00Long Drive...AKA Day 95 of 365Today was spent in the car. Most of the day anyway. 9 hours is plenty. Now for a healing weekend :)Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-83017409429623128642012-02-16T17:07:00.000-06:002012-02-16T17:07:53.845-06:00Good Surveys....AKA Day 94 of 365Tag! You're It!
My totally awesome friend, Laurel of <a href="http://homeschoolinggirls.blogspot.com/">Four Princesses</a>. tagged me in this fun post so I accepted the challenge. You were most likely tagged in my post if you are reading it, so get busy!
This round is the tag of 11's.<br />
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The deal is that I have to<br />
1. Post the rules<br />
2. Share 11 random things about myself<br />
3. Answer the 11 questions from the post in which I was tagged<br />
4. Create 11 new questions for my tagees to answer<br />
5. Tag 11 people-legitly<br />
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Eleven Random Things About Liz:<br />
1. I have lived in 5 different states, 8 different cities, 21 different houses/apartments<br />
2. I can write my name with my toes.<br />
3. I love to cook.<br />
4. I had an imaginary playmate named Junior when I was a child and sometimes Junior was a boy, sometimes a girl.<br />
5. My first car was a brown Audi 5000<br />
6. I have premonitions.<br />
7. My favorite alcoholic beverage is rum (preferably coconut flavored)<br />
8. I am 3 months into 365 days of posting on my blog/journal.<br />
9. Growing up I thought I would be a child psychologist, then along the way realized I would be too emotional for that.<br />
10. My favorite ice cream flavor is Blueberry Cheesecake from a mom and pop shop in Connecticut called Pokey's.<br />
11. I love to laugh and do so as often as possible.<br />
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My 11 questions to answer:<br />
1. What is one of your earliest memories? I remember my granny telling me should wouldn't help with my swimsuit because she didn't "deal with girls".<br />
2. What is a hidden talent that you have? Thanks to my father, I know one or two lines from MANY THOUSANDS of songs.<br />
3. If you had to choose only 1 food to eat for a week....ONLY ONE....what would it be? Any cooking and "free" stuff (seasonings) is OK. It can't be a type of food, or a mixed dish.... but one food.... like chicken. Pasta<br />
4. If you could change your ethnicity, what would you choose to become? I would be Italian (as in live in Italy Italian)<br />
5. Money and time being no object, what career do you wish you had? Attorney<br />
6. You have to move. But, you are given your choice of location. The thing is, you have to stay there for the rest of your life. Where are you moving? Italy<br />
7. You get a "walk on" for a TV show. What show? What do you do? I would love to be on NCIS. I would be a murderer and Gibbs would have to catch me ;)<br />
8. What is your guilty indulgence? Chocolate of just about any variety.<br />
9. In what subject, in school, were you just HORRIBLE? Geometry! I rocked at Algebra, but Geometry and I were mortal enemies.<br />
10.What is your favorite household chore? Why? Folding towels. It calms me to fold them, see them all lined up and color coordinate them in my linen closet.<br />
11. Where did question 11 go? It ran away because it felt out of place.<br />
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The 11 questions I want YOU to answer:<br />
1. What was the name of your first crush and how old were you?<br />
2.What is your favorite place to visit within the US?<br />
3. What was the first album/cassette/cd you purchased on your own?<br />
4. Who is your favorite author and what is your favorite book from that author?<br />
5. If you had to be an ice cream flavor, what flavor would you be?<br />
6. Who is the one person you wish you could spend just one uninterrupted hour with this evening? What would you do? <br />
7. What is the favorite thing that you like to cook and will you share the recipe with me?<br />
8. When was the last time you wrote a real letter and mailed it? To whom was it written?<br />
9. When you look at the youth of today, what is your first thought about the future of our country?<br />
10. If you could go anywhere, all expenses paid for one week, where would you go and who would you take with you?<br />
11. How did we meet?<br />
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Going to do my tagging on Facebook.<br /><br />Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2496734312075826009.post-21051064160404990312012-02-15T21:13:00.001-06:002012-02-16T09:23:58.216-06:00Still sick...AKA Day 93 of 365Being sick sucks.Lizhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10608073366795491076noreply@blogger.com0